To: Why don’t you love me. What am I doing wrong.
Me: You are doing nothing wrong. It is your parents who are wrong. Think about your relationship with your parents and about how they introduced you to s** and how to have s** with someone else. One gives you ten, they never did, but left it up to you, to find out for yourself.
The problem is, you see, that there is no training around for parents to learn how to be good parents, from bad, just as there is no training around, for parents to discover how to explain s**, its functions and how to do it right, to get the best results, to their children, because they don’t know how to do that either.
Like most grey areas, parenting is one of those – you get good and bad and as luck would have it, I had worse than rotten – my parents should never have had children, however they excused that, by saying the condom broke and they got me (I’m male) and they sure punished me for their mistake, to the extent I hated them with every particle of my body and did everything I could to pay them back the way they brought me up, once I left their home – vengeance is a b**** and although I forgave them, as you can see, I still hate them and they have both been dead for some years now.
So the bottom line is, don’t listen to what your parents say to you, about you. Don’t respond to them at all, grow “cloth ears”, so you only hear what you want to hear and discard the rest, off hand.
Hopefully, they will eventually give up on you, when they see their criticisms are not working and leave you to your own devices.
You are able to express yourself well here and your spelling and pronunciation is very good, so I’m inclined to think you are a young adult and if so, that probably means you will be leaving home soon, as an adult, to move through life and be whoever you want to be.
If so, move out as soon as you can and be out of their negative influence and be whoever you want to be, without their nagging emotional abuse, is my simple fix and my advice to you.