Well for the past two years my husband has told me he no longer loves me and no longer wants to be with me, yet we have stayed together. I’m not sure why because neither of us have been happy and I have especially been very unhappy but trying to make it work. He told me he doesn’t like the way I am when I’m happy or the way I laugh…try living like that for 5 years. I finally had enough and had a one night stand. Just to feel someone who was attracted to me for me. I know this was wrong and I’m asking for forgiveness. I think I have ended my relationship a long time ago. Now he is saying he wants to make me happy and he knows he has been wrong for telling me he doesn’t love me. What kind of husband says that though…I just don’t understand. I met someone else recently as well and we are just friends although we do like one another very much. He just recently got a divorce and the papers are still finalizing. I wonder if this is the start of a new beginning for us both. I don’t know, but please Lord forgive me for being unfaithful and not finishing things first before beginning a new relationship. God please forgive me for this. Please don’t hold it above my head, but instead let me learn from this experience and learn to live in Your light.
