I hate it when she lies to me, but I can’t help but forgive her for everything she’s ever done even though I shouldn’t. I love her too much, and she’s sick. So sick that the doctors say she only has a few years left. I don’t know what I’ll do when she’s gone. She’s my whole life. I feel like dory, because I do have memory issues, but when I’m with her everything is better, all my pain is gone, I can remember things, I’m happy. I can’t imagine living without her, and when she’s gone, I think I will be too. I just wanted to get it all out, that maybe someone could tell me that what I’m doing is okay, that loving her is okay. We’ve been best friends since we were little, and watching her with every one of her new boyfriends is ripping me up inside. I see them make her laugh and cry and I wish it was me but I know it won’t be. When we were little we promised each other that we’d always be together and we both still stand by that promise. I guess we’ll be together in death too, because I don’t want to live in a world without her in it. Thanks for listening, whoever reads this.
