Minir back story before point of post…i have always been plain looks and underendowed so not a shocker that I end up with women who will go for a lot of s** up front to lock a LTR down then the s** tapers off in a few weeks to a few months. The exact pattern of every major relationship as well as my first and second (current) marriage. While I did not leave first wife financially destitute she has always been unable to discipline herself/manage money. So a few months back I learn thanks to some comments my adult daughter made to my current wife and me that her mother is escorting (hooking/s**) for additional income. It was a strange and sad thing to hear but it was a whatever for me. A few days later my current wife brings it up. And to my shock says that perhaps this would be something that would solve a problem, that she felt perhaps my known s***** frustrations could be somewhat alleviated by paying my ex wife for that sometimes. I was honestly horrified for multiple reasons, between the years of s***** indifference and rejection at hands of ex wife and then more of the same from current wife. As well as not understanding how this would be comfortable at all to my current wife for a whole list of reasons. I raised those concerns but was told that she looked at it as at least it was a “known” outlet not a random stranger and that she would not consider it cheating. I realized that I had to accept that I simply do not appeal to women sexuall because while I told my current wife that if she wanted to resolve my frustrations then surely we could find a middle ground that was far less distasteful than this. But she told me she was ok with it again and told me that I knew why it was not realisitic to be able to find middle ground s******* between us, and the way she looked at me when she said it….affection but also pity…made me realize that in her mind the topic was already over and the decision made. But once I processed thru it myself I realized that there was no reason I had to accept it or at least no mandate that I act on it. And the matter just laid untouched for weeks until my current wife raised it again, telling me that she had talked to my ex wife and as long as she got paid then that was all she cared about. I still did nothing about it and had no desire to act on it. So my current wife pushed the matter again, telling me that I should stop pouting and needed to deal with my gradually increasing anxious fidgety short tempered mood and go pay a visit. I told her i would rather m********* than do that, but she is still pushing me to go.
