To: my brother raped me when I was 5. He made it like a game I have never told anybody
Me: Yes. Better yet, write it out fully, including your feelings when he came in you and also anything else he did that makes you feel the way you do.
Include dates and times, or from my birthday, when I was 5 he did this and then a few months later, he did that and then x days, weeks or months, he did whatever and write it out in full, possibly on your computer and if he has access, lock the file down with a password known only to you, which is a mixture of upper and lower case letters and numbers, ideally a word which does not mean anything. WinRAR is a great program for that, you can download it off the internet – say from h***://scene-rls.***/releases/index.php using Opera which has a free VPN, which you should use. I use Atlantis Word Processor which you can find there – but…..
As you write it, read it through and make corrections and additions to it, until it makes sense and flows easily, when you read it.
Describe his p****, so that everyone will know it is as you describe it and any other body markings, below his waist, that are not normally seen.
When you have completed it, you have a full record of the abuse you suffered at his hands and you have a choice then:
Do nothing – but you have emptied your mind onto the paper and you can move forward with your life, no longer having those feelings any more.
Print out a copy and give it to your mum.
Print out a copy and give it to your School Support Officer, your Doctor, or the Police, depending on where you live and the customs of your country, in regards to under aged s**.
You have done nothing wrong and you could not consent to s** before you turned 14, because you do not have the mental understanding or maturity, to know right from wrong and you cannot be held accountable.
Better to resolve the mental issues which are f****** up your future life, now, than say nothing and bear the shame – your name and identity will be protected from everyone, except those in the know and you will remove any further s***** activities from him, like removing a tick off a dog’s back and for good.
I’m here and I have your back and you can ask for my support anytime.
R