you never got the real me because I never felt you deserved it, just the humorous unbelievable most dry boring parts of me I would pass off expecting it would make you leave, but you never did. i loved and cared for you but only in so far because it was all you deserved, even lovingly sending you off to play with little girls. oh. . I knew. i knew what you did before and what you did the nights that you did it. i knew how you bought into that weak woman, thinking someone who did everything at your whim was what you wanted. but you didn’t love it like you thought you would. then you were sad because of what you passed up. angry at me because i simply carried on without you. then you tried so hard to live it up but something was missing, even while you bed them, always again feeling lost. of course you will always have someone. that’s not impressive. i saw into your soul and accepted every part of you. who on this earth is ever so lucky to ever find that? especially someone so beat down who feels the world does nothing but screw them. gold at the end of the rainbow. .that’s what i am.