Everything you said is true and I already knew it.. I may be crazy but I’m very self aware. If I didn’t still care about you, I wouldn’t have wasted so much time trying to destroy myself and trying to lash out at you to dehumanize you in my mind. I’m lonely and you were the last woman to reach out to me. Also, Your boyfriend makes me feel inferior because he’s a better version of me in every way…I fell hard and fast and still can’t move on, even now, despite knowing how futile it is to dwell on. I think its because I never got any closure. But at this point I’ve given up on closure because I don’t deserve it.
We were twinflames. Neither of us will recover entirely from each other. At least you are growing g from it. I need you like I need a broken leg. I’ve been waiting to die instead of living for 5 years now, and there will always be a piece of my heart missing that I can’t get back. What can I say, I’m a sick puppy.