It was about 10 years ago I had just gotten my first computer and discovered online p*** sites, something as a grown man I had never indulged in because I used internet cafes before. I also found online adult chats and would frequently lurk as a guest fapping to all the photos that were posted on these chats,I would sometimes allow viewers to watch me j******* via the cam, it was then that someone sent me a pm while I was jacking off, when I opened the messages it was the photo of a girl about 9, completely n*** with legs and v***** spread open, I stood frozen as waves of sudden electricity surged through my body giving me the hardest erection that I ever had, I was still in shock with is this? I never knew such things existed, then another message came, I quickly opened it and it was another young girl performing oral s**, again waves of electricity shot through my body, hand still on now a rock hard p****, heart beating faster that it ever did before, another message came, this time another young girl legs spread open with what appeared to be s**** between her legs, I almost had a heart attack because God’s my witness I never knew that kids had s** or anything like this existed, then another message came, this time with the words enjoy and a link to a website called non n*** preteen models and a private web forum 😉 ,I should have reported it or left but the couriosity and the intense feeling made me m********* and I had the most mind boggling e********** in my life after which I came to my senses and left but not before I had copied the links. A few days later still haunted by the images that I had seen and what I had done I clicked on the links and helplessly masturbated again, this time to young girls in bikinis because I wanted to experience the o***** that I had before,I thought this must be what getting h***** on heroin was like, this led me to the forum that I joined, I ended up m*********** on cam for certain members while they sent me photos of young girl models, random photos of girl’s guys had gotten from social media sites, no n*** or an occasional n***, the viewers would ask me to ejaculate while watching the photos or to print them out and ejaculate on them while they watched and as I had by now become addicted I complied hoping to get my next fix of young girls, thankfully I was never arrested for this, perhaps I was recorded I never knew, my face was never shown but I never hid my ip address or location as I never knew about these things. Before those first photos I never looked at a young girl in anyway s***** whatsoever but after that I would suddenly find myself getting erections for them, I was angry but helpless as it was an addiction by now. I’m still attracted to grown women but also now to little girls. I still m********* and ejaculate secretly on the photos of little girls that I see on instagram or find on google but those forums and websites were long closed down and I’d prefer not to visit such sites again.
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