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My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 17 months. I love him with all of my heart. But in the beginning of our relationship I lied to him about something. I called him one night and told him I had been raped. I never was. And I don’t completely understand why I said that. Or let him believe it. I have recently been realizing a lot. And I’m trying to forgive myself for that mistake and trying to be a better person. But I love my boyfriend so much, but in order for me to move on, and forgive myself. I think I need to let him go, end tell him. So in the end I know I am going to lose him, and it may be for the better for us both. But we are deeply in love, and this will break us both. I have been hating myself more and more lately for my past decisions. And I’m ready to let them go and realize that in the end I messed up, but I want to be a better person. And I know I can. But I don’t think I will ever be able to forgive myself for the pain I caused him at that time.

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When Santa came on Christmas he would give me extra present if I didn’t tell anyone he kisses my who who. He let on to his d0ng while kissing me for a new pair of pink shoes with lights. I write letters to Santa and asked for what I wanted the special present to be. Santa said it will take longer k!sses to be good enough for that big of gift. I looked forward to being s&cked l1cked and k!ssed more than the presents when I was 10 but by then I knew it was my Moms Dad on holidays dressed as Santa, the Easter bunny, Uncle Sam, a clown at my birthday party and a Pilgrim. I asked mom if I could spend a weekend with Pawpa and Mema, she asked if I was certain that was what I wanted to do. Mema said I’ll teach her Appalachian cookin but I spent most of the time with Pawpa building bird houses and fishing. He did his kissing like before with a new trick, pushing his d0ng into my who who a ways he squirted inside me every night. I begged to stay with them as often as I could, after a couple years we progressed to full penetration. Mom made me go on the pill before I turned 13 saying she knew what I was doing to her daddy and she knew it felt to good to stop. She just didn’t to see me with a baby like she had at my age.

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When Santa came on Christmas he would give me extra present if I didn’t tell anyone he kisses my who who. He let on to his d0ng while kissing me for a new pair of pink shoes with lights. I write letters to Santa and asked for what I wanted the special present to be. Santa said it will take longer k!sses to be good enough for that big of gift. I looked forward to being s&cked l1cked and k!ssed more than the presents when I was 10 but by then I knew it was my Moms Dad on holidays dressed as Santa, the Easter bunny, Uncle Sam, a clown at my birthday party and a Pilgrim. I asked mom if I could spend a weekend with Pawpa and Mema, she asked if I was certain that was what I wanted to do. Mema said I’ll teach her Appalachian cookin but I spent most of the time with Pawpa building bird houses and fishing. He did his kissing like before with a new trick, pushing his d0ng into my who who a ways he squirted inside me every night. I begged to stay with them as often as I could, after a couple years we progressed to full penetration. Mom made me go on the pill before I turned 13 saying she knew what I was doing to her daddy and she knew it felt to good to stop. She just didn’t to see me with a baby like she had at my age.

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