I’m 23 and I’ve never been in a relationship in my entire life.
The first Girl that I could really say I had feelings for was my Duchebag of a best friends first serious girlfriend and I put those aside when I met another and while we were a foursome of friend (me, her, best friend and his girl) I later found out that my friend had cheated on his girl with the one I liked. So when they broke up I finally felt something even remotely like joy at his pain of breaking up with his girl but that was like five years ago. So my life for the last eight years can be decribed in about three words first two are: emotional void and the last is lonely. When I finally think I might be ok earlier this year I got the sudden realization that all my friends are in happy relationships and the girl I liked (the one I referred to as her in the foursome of friends earlier) is pretty much engaged and in a drunken haze she confessed to me that she always wanted to be with me while we were all friends. Now as I write this I am resigning myself to the ever more real fate of pretty much dying a lonely old man or ending my life in a way so that I’ll at least be remembered because I really don’t see another way out of this proverbial dark tunnel of loneliness that has become my life.
