Ok, so I’ve been with my boyfriend for 3 years and a bit…. and I won’t try to lie, I don’t love him. Trouble is, I can’t leave him since, well, he’s an obsessive, needy, manipulating, guilt-tripping douche-bag who has cheated on me, emotionally black-mailed me, and when I’ve tried to leave him, he just breaks down into tears and stalks me unless I get back with him…
And for a while, I’ve been feeling s***** and romantic feelings towards his best friend… and I feel guilty about it but at the same time I cannot stop thinking about him and I being ‘together’… Just the thought of it drives me wild and I don’t want to lose this feeling!
I’ve never once cheated before, nor do I intend to… but I felt like I just needed to come out and admit that I know what I do and don’t want. And right now, I wish I had met the best friend first.
