I saw a video of me from Friday night where I looked fat and then he made a comment about how recently I’m a 3/10 so I’m gonna do my best to restrict for a while. I don’t know whether I’m doing it to punish myself or everyone else. I want to get skinny enough to look sick so they see what they did to me, although they’d probably just praise me for losing weight. So far today I’ve only eaten 2 protein balls and drank a black tea. It’s 2pm and I don’t feel hungry yet. I hope I can keep going.
