Okay so heres the deal. I met this guy, who was super hot! yanno, tanned, fit, big muscles, good looking! I instantly thought he was hot and so started to speak to him, I found out he had a girlfriend which was a stab of disappointment to the heart but hell! His girlfriend wasn’t there and I was under the influence of drink and was therefore slightly tipsy so I could easily blame the harmless flirting on the drink which I did in the morning when I “apologized” for my behavior.
We started talking lots and even began going out together (not alone, we were with other friends) we began getting closer and became good friends, but of course I still fancied him and still had a bit of a flirt with him which he actually returned. Its not like we could help it, his girlfriend was out of the country for at least another month 🙂
Anyway, we were finally “alone alone” and I went to his house with good intentions to say no if anything was going to happen, and at first I made good on my intentions and said no! However, being rejected was no something my friend likes and so he cranked up the cute factor which then made me really fall for him and I let him kiss me.
The little subtle kisses when no one was around went on for a while and then things began going to far, we didn’t have s** or anything but we did go a little further than kissing and snogging.
Eventually he told his girlfriend the truth…well so he told me.
When she was due to come back I was so scared that he wouldn’t be allowed to see me or be with me anymore and he would forget me, he promised he wouldn’t but surprise surprise he did and we no longer speak. He broke up with his girlfriend we cheated on and is now with someone new (man s***) but hey, I feel as if i dodged a bullet, if that hadnt happened I may have went out with him and he could have cheated on me!
However… this category is called “a guilt”
He told me he had told his girlfriend the truth… and well… he had… to an extent.
He told her that we had kissed, once, a goodbye kiss!
I now feel bad that she doesn’t know the truth but it has been ages since this all kicked off and maybe I should just forget about it and perhaps its better she doesn’t know what kind of horrible guy she was dating. But then again, they arent together so it seems like she has a right to know. But then again, again! I could tell her thinking I am doing her a favor and she could rage at me and cause me loads of bother which I really cant be bothered with!
Confused and guilty.
