I’ve been so ashamed of myself lately and I don’t know what to do. I’ve been cheating on my wife of 12 years with her friend. She introduced us at a church function about a year ago and we made a connection. We got close fast and suddenly we were doing things I never thought I would together. My wife spends a lot of time with their family and has no idea that when we’re alone bad things happen. I never had an urge to cheat on my wife before but this is different. I hear about how great his wife and family are as he undresses me. His tells me we’re not homosexuals just curious and experimenting. In bed we don’t experiment when we wrestle each others clothes off and say how much we love each other. He’s more than curious when our wives are in the next room and he can’t stop kissing or petting. He says he was the same as me and never even considered being gay until we met. But I have doubts we he pressures me into meeting him at a special place at a nearby beach and I realize as he slips my shorts down we were being watched by two men nearby. He told me to relax and I’ll like how they watch me go down on him. My wife would die if she knew her husband let strangers watch him taste another man’s seed. I feel guilty when his naked body fills my mind when we have s** and when we’re done I regret it’s my wife lying by me not his tone and strong body.