I got my girlfriend pregnant after dating two years. We were 19/20 and I regret it everyday since we are now 5 years in and I wish everyday that I could go back and change things. I hate my life now I hate it. I cant live I cant do anything I want all my dreams are over all I do is work a dead end job graveyard shift and some days I really cant stand to look at my child. I sometimes ignore him all day pretending when people come home that ive attended to him when really all I do is make sure he is fed and changed and safe but I don’t give him love because deep down I hate him and I know its wrong to say and I feel horrible I just wish I could of finished college and got a good career studies abroad or just lived my life more. now im in my mid 20s with nothing to show for it. to make things worse me and my wife are not compatible anymore s*******….its so stale and so boring so unsatisfying and to make things worse im I’ve been sleeping with my ex for over a year now behind my wife’s back….I sleep with my ex because she pleases me s******* and actually cherishes the time we spend together she loves me begs me to be with her all the time and tells me im her world. I hate my life so much I hate who I am I want to die everyday.