I was physically and verbally abused by my step dad and sister growing up. As an adult, I still feel broken, I am lost, no aspirations and I feel that maybe if I had a normal family, my adult life would have been different. I have anxiety, depression and anger issues, when I get angry, I cannot control myself. Growing up, throwing things and physical beatings were pretty normal, and screaming as loud as you possibly can. Police were almost always involved, and they knew my sister, this is how often it happened. I couldnt stick up for myself and I was a kid, I didnt know what to do. There were no breaks between this, at school I was bullied for being fat, also sister was at the school to so she had coerced her school mates to back her up. Terrorized at school and at home. Instead of my family actively doing something about it, they became accustomed to the chaos, but I was getting the bulk of it all. Im sitting here crying while writing this out not looking for support, just to write it all out, who knows I might even press enter.

It has been a couple of years since Ive been in that, I chose to move away I had the perfect opportunity. I had support by someone important in my life, ever since then things are getting better, but there is always going to be a bit of crazy in me. And Im OK with that.