After two years I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m not in love with you. I love you as a person and completely admire who you are, but I don’t feel that we belong together. You annoy me more often than not and I can’t stop thinking that there is someone out there for me that I’d be more compatible with.
The only issue that I face is, we’re married and you’d be destroyed if I left. You’ve told me you’d end your life If you didn’t have me. Ultimately, I care so much about you I’d live an entire life time in misery to ensure your safety and happiness. I’m slowly becoming an alcoholic and diving deep into depression.
If I leave you’d end it, if I stay… I don’t know what will happen. This all hangs in such a delicate balance and one of us is effected in the long run, regardless of the decision I make.
