I hope I didn’t mess things up for good with my insecurity. I’ll be good, I promise. I’ll shut my mouth and wait patiently. Please understand that it wasn’t my intention to be a pain, I just need a little reassurance sometimes. I was fine after we first talked and then a few friends put some ideas in my head and I was upset. I’m good now! Being straight with me is the way to do it.

When we meet again I’m going to hug you without fear. I’ll let myself linger instead of pulling away so fast. I wondered if you’d have kissed me goodbye if I hadn’t been in such a rush that night but you were so tired that it probably never crossed your mind. I have completely come to terms with the fact that I want you to be my first. If I fall for you I’ll deal with that pain when I get there; you could never love me. I’ll break another piece of myself off and keep moving like I always have.