When i was younger. Maybe 7 or 8 ( i can’t remember for sure) my friend had a little sister maybe she was 1 or 2, she was still in diapers. Sometimes i would be able to look after her and play with the little sister, but one day when no one was in the room i put her on the ground and started to grind on her. When she started crying i pinched her and she would cry even more.

I don’t know why i did this. I’m 15 now and it haunts me every single day.

i also did this to a friend maybe i was 7 and she was 4 or 5. I didn’t hit her or pinch her. I’m not sure if either girls remember. But i feel so f****** bad.

I don’t want to live with this fact and i think about it every day. I forgot about it for a long time or i just didnt remember it.

Am i a p********? Did i traumatise them? Will i go to jail?

I feel sick and have panic attacks think about this. This is the worst thing i have ever done in my life. I don’t deserve to live. I cannot stand this guilt, but i’m too afraid to tell anybody. I fucked up.

Saying sorry won’t erase my mistakes but. I’m so sorry, i’m so sorry.