I (m18) went to my friend’s house (m26) today. I have had a crush on him for years. it was storming and i could not go home. it was late at night, and we were sitting on the floor really close, just talking. there was one minute when we said nothing and just stared at each other, and i couldn’t control myself. i kissed him on the lips, very quickly and very shyly. and I was so embarrassed that I just dropped my head on his shoulder. when i looked back at him he moved my hair away from my eyes, kissed me once on the lips and once on the throat. it made me shiver. then he helped me to my feet and said that I should leave. i walked home in the storm, 4 miles. i don’t know how to feel about everything that just happened. I don’t know if things are good or bad now.