I’ve built this internet persona of mine for so long that I don’t even know where the line blurs between my actual life anymore. I’ve recently abandoned a lot of my internet friends just out of pure confusion for myself and extremely stupid jealousy and don’t know how I can just go back to them and forget about me being an absolute dickhead. I know they accept me but I find that im spoiled with such good people and wish that I was given less at times. I think a few close friends of mine think of me as more than just friends and that’s frustrating to think about. And I think about it for hours and occupies my everyday life. I can’t focus anymore.