Okay so I’m from Alabama and I’m the first one in my family to go to college out of state. My family and I are super religious (I grew up protesting at pride and stuff).Any way I go to school in New York and I got roomed with this guy named Abraham who’s Jewish and liberal and from New York. Last night we were studying and we started talking about all this deep stuff and he leaned over and just kissed me And I kissed him back even though I knew it was wrong I just forgot because it felt right.
I’d kissed a bunch of girls before but this was different. Anyway so we kept kissing and then other stuff happened that’s confusing and to wrong to own up to and then before I knew it I was laying naked in his arms talking and really happy but in a weird I’m not supposed to be happy way. He told me all this stuff about how he loved me and was really happy this happened and I AGREED AND I MEANT IT I just wasn’t thinking and nothing on me realized what I just did And then we woke up this morning and was like wtf. We were supposed to go out to breakfast with our friends that morning and I was worried they’d all know any everyone would laugh and my life would be ruined but as we were getting ready we just started kissing again and my dumbass was like “this is fine! Go to breakfast”
So we went to breakfast and Abraham held my hand and acted like the other couples in our group and people were happy? It was really weird and people kept telling me how happy I was and making jokes about how they never thought Abraham would end up with a “Christian from Alabama”. I got super freaked out and after breakfast we all went and saw a play one of our friends was in and then I got back to our dorm and Abraham left because he was going home for thanksgiving break and he kissed me good bye and said he was sorry for leaving me after what just happened but his parent where here to drive him home. And I met his mom? And she gave me a hug and called me dear? And said how happy she was I was “taking care of Abraham” and then he left. And now I’m alone. And it’s all hitting me. And I have to go home to visit my family tomorrow. And I’m freaking the f*** out. And I can’t talk to my friends because they’ll laugh
