So I went to school once to go on a field trip, on the bus I (kind of, just rubbed her leg) s******* assaulted a female. I feel bad and want to castrate myself. I just wanted to be a good person but I’m not. I feel like I am a soul in another person’s body watching their sins and life go by. I was given a minimal punishment but I should be in jail right now. I should die or at least be castrated for this sin I committed. I would rather die than continue my life knowing that I disgraced God.