Is there anything I can do to make this right beside to kill myself? I just feel my death would make so many people happy including my own family so many people would stand and cheer. Who am I to deny people that level of happiness? Dingdong the witch is dead let’s do this kill the beast slay this m***********. it’s the only way I can stop hurting people And avoid a lifetime of isolation for myself . nobody will cry at my funeral f*** no one will even show up …iMessage to make sure I’m dead. I’m tired of spending holidays alone I’m tired of superficial interaction with other people I wanna home I want people in my life that actually love me and care and that’s just not something that my disorder happen. I don’t blame you it’s just I can’t take anymore lost her drama it’s just Again and Again just made me realize that’s all my life is ever going to be unless I can learn to be happy with isolation and superficial social interaction and I’m not I want somewhere to belong I want love I want a home a family and those are just things with the way I am I can never have I’m not somebody that people can walk or want around. Please God I pray for you please let me succeed it’s time to kill the beast.
