My friend she used to self harm and think about suicide she has anxiety. She always tells me about it but it puts a lot of pressure on me she once said she was going to kill herself then didn’t answer any calls or messages and it freaked me out I started having a panic attack then finally found her house phone number and she was fine. I just don’t want to deal with others feelings. I can barely deal with my own emotions. I just want to be selfish and young and dumb. But I think this is a toxic friendship she’s always making up things about my other friends so I’ll hangout with her instead and she says horrible things about stuff I can’t change and it makes me feel awful and extremely self conscious. This may sound disgusting but I don’t really care about her problems there’s no way I can help her. I just don’t want to have to deal with so much right now. She also likes to turn everything towards me like it was my fault. Overall I don’t think she’s good for me and I kind of want out. I feel so guilty for not caring but I just really don’t want to she brings me down so much. What should I do ?