I am in love with a guy. Hopelessly in love. At first, I thought it was just an infatuation. We were together in 10th grade. I had never met a guy like him before, perhaps, never will meet anyone like him, ever again. He is the ultimate guy. It has been 9 years now. I have never been able to confess my undying love to him. I’m 22, he’s 23. I can’t see him with his girlfriend. Somewhere deep inside, I know that he likes me too, but neither he, nor I have ever been able to tell each other anything even remotely close to our feelings. I feel that now, since he has a girlfriend, I should not even think of him as it would make me a home wrecker, but other times I feel that she is not good enough for him. I have always been at the top of my class, I am taller, actually taller than him. And I’m quite slim and smart, I have even been suggested to take up modelling as a career, but since, I have been more into studies, I have other better options for making a career out of them. I have come across a lot of guys, but I could never ind anyone like him. His moral, his principles and almost everything about him is so s***, that can’t even think of comparing him to anybody else. Its been so long since I had a chat with him, it feels like an eternity. I just want to be with him, talk to him, know him more, love him and take care of him, but that is not possible because of my big EGO. I have never initiated any conversation with him, ever! I just keep on staring at the screen, hoping for him to start the conversation. I feel supid, rather than egoist. I can’t forge his scent, I can’t forget the long walks home with him. He is the ultimate guy for me. Lord, I just want to be with him. What do I do??????