Why do I feel like I will have trouble loving others and bonding with my own future children? I think it was because I was ripped from my home 3 times by CPS (child protective social services) when I was a child. I was also psychologically abused by my mom. She is very manipulative, amd everything is her way or the highway. She made me have severe anxiety because everytime I wanted to try something new, she would panic and tell me how she didn’t think I was ready and everything that could go wrong. She would always blame me for her problems (i.e., you got me evicted, you are the reason my sister and I aren’t close anymore, I wish you were more like your cousin who is so well behaved, etc.).
Please, I’m begging someone out there, if they have any ideas for me to overcome my feelings on inadequacy, or a good book on getting over the trauma of being in foster care, please let me know.