So, more recently my friends have become everything to me, they’re the main reason I try to wake up in the morning. But they all have different timezones

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So, more recently my friends have become everything to me, they’re the main reason I try to wake up in the morning. But they all have different timezones so it’s always super late for me when they’re up, and I’ve been purposefully destroying my sleep schedule and lowering my mood in the mornings just to spend time with them. I’m afraid to tell them because I don’t want to make them feel bad or think it’s their fault because it’s completely my own fault. It’s 2 AM now and I’m still up waiting for one of them, I know I’ll be tired and in a horrid mood in the morning, which is a pain for my family. But I just can’t help myself..

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I’ve lost my Ego, self respect and dignity. I have nothing own nothing, am nothing but worthy of whatever the bully wishes from me. And what that means is that my life is to be exposed, exhibited. Be degraded daily by my bully so he can get off on his thrills of humiliating me in front of however many or little amount of kids happen to show up. The crowds apparently seem to get bigger as the days go by. My humiliation is becoming acceptance as routine is becoming comfortability. These pre adult children are masters at performing to show angst between disgust and desire. Which adds to the shame. Of what’s being done to me.

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I used to go online, find girls to have online relations with. I was a teenager. It started from the start of high school, when I was 15. At worst was F, that was my bottom barrel. It was gross. I don’t know how old she was but she was younger. It was near the end, during the pandemic. I was older, she was younger. I don’t know how much younger, but I was 16 I think. She was younger. Like 2 or 3 years younger, I dunno? It was gross of me. I regret doing it but I fear my regret isn’t because of how I hurt someone, took advantage. They were ok with it in the moment, we were both on the same hookup site. But I was gross. No question about it. There was T too but that was a 16-18 age gap. I deleted the accounts. I was just gross.