Hi all,

I’m in so much turmoil and so upset with myself for my selfishness and just how I let this lie become a part of my life for so many years,
I lied to my parents regarding school. I’ve been letting them beleive that I am studying my Business degree and graduation is next week. I have been faking reports, university statements for the past 4 years. I feel so guilty because they have been giving me monthly allowances etc. I just do not know what to do. I have contemplated suicide, still am to be honest. I a a terribl person to do this to such amazing and supportive parents.
I’ve even gone to the point of just wanting to get a hacker to hack into the school’s system. I am a mess. I seriously hate myself and do not deserve my parents.