I don’t think I’ll be able to ever be able to forgive my spouse after tonight. The yelling, threats of suicide, wall and head punching… and now this? Abandoning our autistic child’s beloved pet? I’m lost. I feel numb and far away.
Lately I’ve been unable to stop trembling. The outbursts used to be mild and occasional like a normal person and now they’re frequent, severe, and I’m always the one apologizing. I’m nervous when everything is too perfect and we act like a happy family. It means an explosion is brewing every time.
I hate myself for having a child with someone like this. F*** this s***.