I’m a terrible person. Sometimes, I lie about things not to get myself out of trouble, but just for the purpose of hurting others. I lie to my parents about things that I know will upset them and say terrible things to them and feel satisfaction from doing it. I’m terrible, honestly terrible. I’m even manipulating someone’s romantic feelings for me just for my own satisfaction, and I don’t even feel anything from it. Everyday, I talk to this person, leading them on and making them believe that I truly like them by imitating things that I’ve seen in movies, heard in songs, or seen in books, they easily buy into it and treat me like I’m some god. I’m with them just for convenience, really. I thought that maybe if I entered a relationship with someone, my life would be more exciting and fun, maybe the person that I actually liked would get jealous. The person that I’m manipulating now is a genuinely good person that likes me for who I am and I’m just pretending to like them. I’m a surprisingly good acting, if I want to gain someone’s affections (platonic or romantic), I’ll just pretend to be someone that I’m not and they’ll fall for it in no time, I don’t even know what I’m doing. I gain satisfaction by doing these things and there are people that actually think that I’m this amazing, perfect person.

I’m terrible.