I am depressed. Why are women so cruel to s** offenders? I feel like killing myself right this minute. No one is ever going to love me, I just have to admit that.
For the past two years, I thought I lived with the love of my life. I had finally found a somewhat decent job with good wages and benefits. I supported my girlfriend during her nursing school. Free food, housing, clothes, use of a car, cell phone. I even paid half of her tuition. I thought we had a loving relationship. She treated me like there was no one else in the world and she made me feel important. We had long, deep talks, s**, vacations. We were planning our future…children, marriage, house buying, retirement, careers.
Anyhow, I proposed to her. These were her exact words: “How could I ever degrade myself so low as to marry a s** offender like yourself? You are the scum of the Earth and I just used you to get me through nursing school. I never loved you and no woman will.”
I just went to my bed, curled up naked, and cried and cried my heart out for hours. I purposefully injured my p****. It is black and blue. I hate it as it got me in so much trouble, I hate myself. All I wanted was to be loved and have a great future.