This depression makes me have reckless urges. I want to abandon my child, run away. Sometimes I want to hook up with a stranger or start a fling. I'm not

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This depression makes me have reckless urges. I want to abandon my child, run away.
Sometimes I want to hook up with a stranger or start a fling. I’m not even attracted to anyone anymore- just to do it for the chaos.
I want to trash the house. I want to shave my head. I want to secretly take a new job and barely for a month to lose 20 pounds and finally be under 100 lbs (I’m barely 5 ft so its really not that thin for my height or build).
I just want to destroy all I’ve worked so hard to build.
I want to disappear forever.

New Confession

The Gist family of Ridge Road, Wellford, SC 29385 have lived free of others for 3-4 generations. They consist of promiscuous whores, ne’er do wells, fraudsters, and other dishonest types. They never paid for their property at all but relied upon other relatives to pay for their upkeep. They consist of Javant Gist, Laura Cates, Betty Ann Gist, Stanley Gist, Aleathea Booker, Samantha Gist, Tommy Gist, formerly Frances Booker(who also lived free), and other no good parasitic relatives. They engage in illegal behaviors. One is a known fraudster-she was fired for embezzling cash at work and even lie going to unclaimed funds to obtain money that isn’t hers. This family is poison. May they ROT IN HELL.

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I used to go online, find girls to have online relations with. I was a teenager. It started from the start of high school, when I was 15. At worst was F, that was my bottom barrel. It was gross. I don’t know how old she was but she was younger. It was near the end, during the pandemic. I was older, she was younger. I don’t know how much younger, but I was 16 I think. She was younger. Like 2 or 3 years younger, I dunno? It was gross of me. I regret doing it but I fear my regret isn’t because of how I hurt someone, took advantage. They were ok with it in the moment, we were both on the same hookup site. But I was gross. No question about it. There was T too but that was a 16-18 age gap. I deleted the accounts. I was just gross.