when i was young i had my friends’ younger sisters on three different occasions, three different girls, show me their naked bodies. it scarred me for life and i am now attracted to underage girls. i’ve almost been in trouble with the law over it years ago and have a history of s***** activity with girls younger than me, and have tried therapy to no avail. my friends all know i find young girls attractive but they don’t know the extent or the past. i am so worried that if i told anyone the full truth i would be left with no friends which would be terrible because i already have no family over religious decisions. to further my issues, there is no way for me to satisfy these s***** urges and it pains me that i even feel the need to satisfy them in the first place. but worst of all is that it wasn’t my fault to begin with… i just had some bad luck and trauma.