I have been looking at p*** and s** chat rooms for years. I have looked at both genders and I have not been the person I have wanted to be. I have been dreaming of my ex boyfriend lately. I am dangerously close to losing everything with how I feel and my behaviors. I am married and I have a son and I can’t keep being this person and living this way. I am putting this out there so I can finally be honest and get this out of my life. I am so tired of this guilt and shame that have surrounded me. I want a new life free from this addiction and making me feel such horrible things.