I’m married and have a young child, but occasionally I go to strip clubs, like every couple of months. I started last year, after really feeling like there was just no intimacy in my marriage. I mostly think it is harmless, even though I hide it. I get lapdances or maybe VIP dances once in a while (just a longer, more expensive lapdance). Yesterday I went to a club that I’d never been too. After her stage show, a girl that I found extremely attractive came over to me and offered private dances. I agreed to a lapdance and when we got to the private room and she started, she said she would perform oral s** for $150. So right off the bat I’ll say I declined, but I was extremely, EXTREMELY tempted. I’m not even sure how I managed to resist, but I did. I paid for a few dances though. Now, today, I can’t stop thinking about it. I still feel so tempted by it, now that I know exactly where to go and when to go there for that kind of service. I’ve never done anything like it and the thought of doing it scares me half to death, and yet I can’t get it out of my head. Sometimes I worry I’m a s** addict based on this habit and my p********** watching habits at times. My wife is just kind of a cold fish and it really hurts because I’ve been telling her about my dissatisfaction that aspect of our relationship for a few years, with almost nothing changing. I know doing something like what I’m thinking about would make me a terrible person (if I’m not already) and I don’t plan on doing it, but I feel like my resistance is going to wear down as time goes on and I’m scared of what I’ll do because it could ruin my life.