Alot of things have been going on in my life, and I felt like I wanted to talk about it somewhere. I lied to my parents that my friend was in the same place we were in for vacation, to meet a random dude online. I was scolded for at least 2 months, and whenever i do something bad, i feel so much guilt i want to throw up. I also sent nudes to someone online (same age), which I really shouldnt have been doing, and the girl laughed at me and screenshotted the chat then blocked me. I also just feel like im not growing up. I feel like im stuck being childish and immature compared to everyone else, and i cant fit in with anybody. I feel like whenever I talk to somebody it will be so awkward, and I will just feel that guilty feeling again. I need somebody to say that it is alright, and that I will change, but nothing is really changing for me. Ive felt incredibly horrible this past week, and cant figure out why it is affecting me so much.