Okay, so in the past 4 years in school, I’ve plenty of crushes. None of them worked out hahah duh.. but each of them taught me plenty of lessons and shaped my personality that made me who I am today.

**Take note, this is practically an essay. If you’re interested in the lesson, just read the last paragraph.

5 years ago, I was 13 and had a legit crush on this guy who is 2 years older than me. I was pretty shy and awkward. It went on for 2 years, after that, he got a girlfriend. He found out I had a crush on him because my freaking best friend told him. And I was so angry but idk why I kept it inside. And when I found out he got a gf I lashed out on twitter saying mean things about him and he found out. I tweeted everything anonymously btw. I didn’t mention any names. But it was still a d*** move. I said sorry and he apologized. This is the reason why I liked him. He’s so kind and I broke the friendship I had with him. After he graduated, we didn’t talk much because everything became awkward but we’re still on good terms.

Next, this crush is the one I had last year. He is unpredictable. He can sometimes be crazy but when he sees someone crying, usually a girl, he could freaking console her like the gentlemen in the movies. Eventhough I liked him, I had no intentions to date him. I didn’t really care about getting him especially when he has a crush on someone else. But when he found out I’m interested in him, he suddenly talked about allllll the reasons he couldn’t accept me. Pretty annoying. In the end, I moved on and he got a gf.

Now, this is my recent crush. He has great personality. He’s kind and soft spoken pretty much the opposite of my previous crush. I started crushing on him 2 days before his accident. How did I remember this? Because I was wondering where was he at school and on that night, my friend told me he got into an accident. That’s when I realised that I actually care about this guy. Good news was that he didn’t get admitted to the hospital but he was injured bad enough to skip school for a month. I was devastated. Each day wondering how was he doing and I had no way of knowing. But eventually I saw him came to school and I was smiling the whole day. I was so happy to see him. After that, a few things happen and we became close friends. If I had any problems he said to just tell it to him everything. He knows that I have a crush on him and he treated me the same . I couldn’t force him to like me back because he’s still recovering from a heart break. But I’m happy enough to be his friend.

After all that has happened, I became an open person about who my crush is but not to the point where the whole school knows. Enough for just a few close friends. I’m not embarrassed if my crush knows I like him. Because it is a feeling that you can’t control. And it is normal that you like someone. I suggest if you can’t make it happen, don’t force it. Be friends instead and enjoy the happiness of interacting with your cursh. It is an experience. If he/she likes you back, then lucky you! If they made fun of you for liking them, then they are not worth your heart.

-exiiv-