So i went to a MUN (debate competition) , I didn’t win anything cause i was anxious all the damn time . So , after this my teacher told me to guide other students cause she knew i tried my best and i could mentor students . I helped one of my friends and i know that she is going to win (tomorrow is the award ceremony) and i am kind of jealous. I am guilty for being jealous and i am furious I didn’t do well in my MUN and nobody helped me like i am helping my friend. I just don’t know anymore . I FEEL DOWN , guilty, jealous , furious . And i also hope that she wins cause i put all my effort in helping her .