I’m 45 now, when I was 15 I raped a 13 year old girl. I think I really hurt her because she was a virgin. The guilt has been with me for 30 years and it’s getting so bad I’m thinking about suicide. I have a pretty decent life- wife, two beautiful children whom I love so much. I don’t want to ever miss one of their hugs, kisses, or cuddles. I know what I need to do- I need to apologize to the woman I raped. It would make me feel better as a person, at least I hope so. I want to take her in my arms and both of us cry our hearts out together. Maybe 30 years of hidden pain will vanish for the both of us. She only lives an hour from me…I may just drive over and talk to her. I never even told my wife how horrible of a person I am. Please give me some advice on how to handle these situations.