I’m a nineteen year-old boy from Russia. I’m bisexual, but I hide it, because it is unacceptable in our culture. But last night I met a middle-aged American man and we talked the whole night, and he sodomised me for forty five minutes and shut sperm in my a**. It was my first time and it hurts very badly right now. He used no lubricant. It was wonderful. He didn’t leave his number, but promised he’ll find me. I can’t stop thinking about him, but I also can’t tell anyone.