I’m 16 years old, people always tell me how good I am at everything, my parents always expect me to be the very best and are very strict.
my sister used to abuse me physically when i was younger.
I’ve wished for my death for so long now and I have scars from cutting.
I feel guilty because my friend told me to get rid of my cutting tools such as scissors and knives but I didn’t.
I’m still feeling suicidal, I planned my suicide before and I think that I can do it any moment now.
I’m too emotionally unstable, my thoughts are overwhelming me to the point of being unable to sleep at nights at all.
I wish my friends would just let me go, I’ve disappointed myself and I’m not interested in having a future anymore.
I want them to give up on me too.
They keep me alive and it’s suffocating me.