I’ve been dating this girl for about four months now and it’s my first serious and physical relationship with someone of the same gender. (I’m pansexual. Female) she’s wonderful and loving and we are very passionate in bed.. But..
Her depression and anxiety and mania and suicidal thoughts makes it hard for me to want to stay. Every time I’m with her it’s wonderful. But sometimes she gets hit with a wave of depression or anxiety and gets anxiety attacks in the middle of a good date because she was over thinking.. And I don’t like her in that instant. Years ago I was in one of my worst stages of depression and had an eating disorder too. So when she’s like that it triggers me. And it makes me feel depressed and I can’t deal with that. I don’t want to deal with it. Because Its affecting my mental health and I get so unhappy. I know it’s wrong of me to wish to have the good parts. But when the bad parts comes.. It’s really really really bad…