I once bought a syringe and tried to infect my ex with the three letter word. we used to f*** each other but he never got it or he lied about it. then I resorted to the first sentence. I feel so bad about it. I think god is punishing me for it. but he was a fucked up individual too. He was bigger than me and used to beat me. I used to cheat on him with other dudes. I was an e***** who had s** with older men for money. he didn’t know that. still I loved him and wanted to keep him with me. it was a fucked up relationship from the start.
