I am a closet alcoholic. I drink when I’m depressed and angry at my husband. I cannot leave him because a financial reasons I would be destitute if I did. So when he is mean and disrespects me I sneak drinks because he does not like me to drink. I go to liquor stores and by those tiny bottles and drink two or three at a time. Yesterday I bought little screw-top bottles of wine and a supermarket and I drank 4. And I went to a restaurant and have another glass of wine and I was talking loudly and being a jerk so I left. I went to a park where there was live music and danced like a fool out in public. And when I felt like I could drive i drove home. He thinks I was out shopping all day. I hide liquor in the house in a spot I know he will never find. I am deeply ashamed. Sometimes I want to quit but I never will because it’s all I have.