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So my friends found my tumblr blog, and when i was 12-13 i was really into fontcest, and just. Really fucked up sruff. Like, s****/loli, i*****, gore, r***. Yeah it was awful and they saw some of it and i managed to delete it before they saw the worst of it. But i feel f****** sick and deeply ashamed. I managed to convince them that i wasnt like that anymore but that awful feeling is there. They say they still love me and they dont really care but i want to vomit. I feel so disgusting and ashamed. They dont….really think of me any different. It really just effected me more. I feel like i need to get my stomach pumped. It was a huge invasion of privacy. Something i wanted to take to my grave. I dont know what to do or how to get this feeling to go away. Ive never been so humiliated and horrified in my life. Haha. Im a fucked up person and i know that and i accaptrd it but i never wantrd anyone to see that side of me. I dont think theyll talk behind me back i hope. They think im not like that anymore. Whenever my friend mentioms kids i keep expecting her to be like “oh yeah eww u were pedoy as a kid lmao”. F***. Im not a p********. I was just a kid into kids my age and i didnt understand. F*** f***. I hate myself

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After my dad passed away me and my mother took a trip back to Ohio so I could drop her off at her sister’s house.. I got to saint louis missouri and we couldn’t find a hotel to say at so I pull over in a rest area and parked in the back. We both got in the back of the van and fell asleep. I woke up wet so I opened up the back of the van and took all my clothes off. I woke up my mother and she did the same. She laid back down and I got in behind her and I got a hard on. My mother put her hand back behind her and knew I had one. I started playing with her t*** and then her c***. She said I don’t think we should be doing this
I told her that both of us needed this. She rolled over on her back and I got on top of her and she put me inside her. I started off slow and then fast. I could tell she was c******. Then again and then again. That’s when I put myself really deep inside her and came. It felt so good c****** inside her. We talked about it the rest of the way and said that we should do it more when she comes back home. And then she tells me that dad and her knew about the guy up the street making movies with me and his daughter. I didn’t think any one knew about that. There was even times that me and him had s**. I would s*** him off and he did the same to me. Mostly it was me and his daughter having s**. Mom said that her and dad would watch us. They were looking thru holes in the wall and after he was done mom and dad had s** with the wife and him. Mom said that she has all the tapes. I said even the ones that me and him having s**
She said yes and the ones of you and he’s wife. She said that dad help him sell a lot of them to people. Mom said she had copies of all of them. She would show me were they are when she comes home. I played a couple of them and she had all of them. Even ones with mom and dad having s** with them. Mom asked me if I enjoyed being with him. I told her yes I did. It was fun sucking him off and him c****** I’m my mouth. He did c** a lot. They moved away and mom and dad never saw them again.

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