there is a monster inside me. i’ve had it for as long as i can remember and it waits in the back of my mind like some steel trap, just waiting for the day

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there is a monster inside me. i’ve had it for as long as i can remember and it waits in the back of my mind like some steel trap, just waiting for the day i lose control. the day i snap. on the outside i’m the most regular person you’ll ever meet; i volunteer at church, i help my parents with whatever they need, i have friends, not many enemies. but deep within me i can feel the darkness becking. it sits in silence for the moment i go too far. it fills my head with sickness, i cut and burn myself until i am in so much pain i’m unable to stay conscious. i think of horrible things, ways to hurt people, make them suffer for no reason at all. split open someone’s back, dig my fingers into their spine, hear them scream. i’m so afraid. i’m afraid that one day i will live out these thoughts. one day i will snap, and do the unthinkable. hurt. kill. the monster wants it so badly. wants me to cause pain. i don’t understand it. it’s becoming harder to control. i’m so afraid.

New Confession

My girlfriend told me that after school we could go to her house and have s e x. She said her mother decided it was safer for her to have s e x at home than in the back seat of a car.

She said we could go to her bedroom and do it there. She told me that the door had to remain open. I was a little hesitant about that but I guess we’ll have to be quiet.

Then she told me that her mother would be there to supervise. She explained that her mother would be in the room, watching, for safety. She said we could have all the s e x we want and as often as we want but only with her mother present.

I have to think about that. It’s odd to have her mother right there while we are doing it. It is a chance to bang her really good and often and get my co.ck sucked but I don’t like the idea of her mom watching everything. I don’t want to miss the opportunity but I’d like to bang her privately. I’m not sure what to do.

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