I am from a religion which doesnt allow homosexual desires to be acted upon. I was able to keep myself away from that since last 7 years but last night i hooked up with a guy .i didnt feel anything i thought i just need a closure whether i like it or not . I was all numb . I feel so guilty now . People around here are so orthodox . I fear if they found out what will happen to my family i mean mentally. I am having a more guilt than ever . I wish i could take all of it back.