I want to break free of p***. Do do that, I m********* while not fantisizing. However today I masturbated whilst weaing my wife’s p******, Something that felt wrong at the time and continues to feel wrong. Obviously, my wife does not know. I am ashamed, but do not want to reveal my secrets to my wife as it would (rightly) break her trust inme, and damage our relationship. However keeping it hidden means I am more likely to do it again.