i think that everything iv said and done was to get attention. i rarely ever really feel upset but i always get upset a lot of the time. the other half where im “upset” i think was just for attention. the thing is im always given complements and given lots of positive attention. i always think i need more attention and feel like no one lves me and everyone hates me despite being told that everyone loves me every day. i think its becuase i think everyone is lying to me. i think that i feel that if i get enough attention some of it has to be true so i always want more but… i dont deserve all this attention. i know some people dont even get a singal complement a year and so it makes me feel selfish. im making myself be selfish. dispite knowing this i cant stop and so the worse i feel and the more complements i want. repeat